Oh yeah, I write a blog, dont I? d'uhhh!

I know its been ages since I last wrote…so much has happened..

I actually came on here several times to write new blogs, but I think somethings either wrong with the site, or my computers web programs…I write the whole blog, and then when I press “publish”, it takes AGES to load the next page…actually, it NEVER loads the page, but after about 5 minutes of waiting, ALL the shyte I wrote just kinda DISSAPEARS. Yes, it deletes itself like pac-man eating those corny dots.

I gave up. Read an old blog down below, and you’ll know how much I HATE having the stuff I write being lost without backing it up….even if it’s a small, insignificant piece of shit. I just hate it …feels so demoralizing. Like I just poured my heart into something for twenty minutes, and then it just disappears..laughs at those 20 minutes of open expression as if it meant absolutely nothing. Blehh.

But anyway..I’m back. I don’t garuntee I’ll write very regularly: I’m still in medschool, so it’s a perty busy schedule I’ve got. Add that to the major procrastination and self-destructive and just plain LAZY attitude that I’ve got, and you get a guy writing blogs pretty damn rarely. Anyway.

I think I need to find some direction for these blogs.

The books going really well..A little slow over the past few days because of medschool work getting more hectic, but still obsessively on my mind, and a few bursts of brilliance being written down every now and again.

Love-Life? Haha..interesting ups and downs. Incredible highs that could make me fly, and crushing lows causeing more pain than I thought possible. I’ll get into the details later. Just ask if ur really curious.

Anyway…I’ll sign off for now.

Take care.


Oh yeah..I noticed I pay too much attention to the detail of my writing, don’t I? So much so, that it actually retards the flow that all these ideas come out with. I should just let go, and let the shit flow, detach myself a little from whether it’ll be good enough or not, from my love of the books characters, etc etc, and just allow that river to flow right out of this perpetually distracted head of mine.

Anyway, take care #2

S